13 November 2000
End of the nightmare
For 47 years Iain Gordon has been the
victim of a gross miscarriage of justice, convicted of a murder he did
not commit. Now that his name has finally been cleared, he is free of the
past - and also, writes Simon Hattenstone, remarkably free of bitterness
Iain Gordon floats into the Glasgow cafe like a nervy
ghost. Somehow the crisp white shirt and immaculate suit and overcoat only
highlight the hollowed eyes and stringy neck. He apologises for being late,
which he isn't. A couple of days ago we spoke on the phone and he apologised
for the distance I had to travel, the fact that his flat was in no state
to receive visitors, the fact that I might not recognise him. More or less
apologised for his existence.
It is 47 years since Iain Gordon, then known as Iain
Hay Gordon, was convicted of the murder of Patricia Curran. The 19-year-old
daughter of a prominent Ulster judge was discovered at the bottom of the
family's huge drive. Nothing seemed to add up. The family drove her to
their doctor's home, suggesting to the police that she was still alive
even though one arm was stiff with rigor mortis. Despite the fact that
she had been stabbed 37 times, there was little blood at the scene. Despite
an apparent scuffle with her killer, Patricia's belongings were piled neatly
10 yards from the body. Despite the rain, they were dry. And so it went
on. Although Justice Lancelot Curran told the police at 1.45am that Patricia's
boyfriend had told him he had last seen her at 5pm, the boyfriend said
he never spoke to the judge until after 2am. There was a mass of contradictory
evidence, but the Currans' house was not searched for another week out
of respect to the family.
The murder caused panic throughout the RUC. Not only
were the Currans local dignitaries, but the constabulary had recently been
criticised for its poor conviction rate. A suspect was needed. Any suspect,
some would say. "I'd be the first person to admit I was not very streetwise.
Naive," Gordon says. He was 20 years old, starting out in the RAF, recently
posted to Whiteabbey on the outskirts of Belfast. He had never been away
from his family before.
Gordon vaguely knew the Currans. He had met Patricia's
brother, Desmond, at the local church. Desmond belonged to a group called
the Moral Rearmament Movement, which believed in a series of absolutes
- absolute purity, absolute beauty, absolute truth. Desmond invited Gordon,
a middle-class boy out of his depth, home to dine with his family. "That
dinner was so peculiar. Patricia was the only one who spoke to me. Desmond
introduced me to his father - he just looked up from his newspaper, and
never spoke to me. It was like something from Victorian times - frigid
and rigid. His mother was like a hen on hot bricks. I've never seen anything
like her." After the unnerving supper, Desmond took him upstairs and introduced
him to the philosophy of his group, which involved both men telling each
other their innermost thoughts. All in all, he met Desmond Curran four
times. He only met Patricia twice.
In the weeks after Patricia's death, Gordon was interviewed
several times by the police. His father was told it was simply a matter
of course; after all, there was no evidence against Gordon.
By January, two months had passed and the police
were still no closer to an arrest. Gordon was recalled on the 13th because,
although he said he had been resitting an exam at his barracks on the night
of the murder, there was no witness to support his alibi.
By the 14th the interview had turned into an interrogation.
"They took me to a place of their own in Belfast. This is where it all
began to go wrong for me. I was in a small room, say 12ft by 8ft. There
were four police officers on one side and I was on the other. From about
2 o'clock till 10 they were shouting non-stop at me, 'You did it, you did
it, you did it .' "
The churchgoing mummy's boy was told that if he didn't
confess they would tell his mother about his friendship with a local homosexual.
"They said the shock would kill her. I never got a word in edgeways. Every
time I opened my mouth they said, 'You're a liar, you're a liar, you're
a liar. If you don't confess you'll go to hell.' " The memory is so sharp
that his lips glue together and he begins to stutter. "Maybe it doesn't
sound very intimidating, but when you're in a small room and it's going
on for 10 hours and you can't get out . . . My opinion of the police was
taken from Agatha Christie novels. Unfortunately the reality was very different.
To me it was something I'd have expected from the Gestapo or Stalin's secret
police."
On the third day, Gordon broke down. "We were in
a different room with an open window and I think this was done on purpose.
Again they gave me hardly anything to eat and drink. I was exhausted, shattered.
I think if I hadn't signed that statement I would have thrown myself out
of that window to get some peace of mind." He tells his story quietly,
gently, with just a hint of a lisp.
A huge British fry-up arrives. Bit by bit, Gordon,
now 68, polishes off the lot. He says his skinny frame is misleading; he's
always liked his grub.
The chief investigating officer, Capstick, wrote
out a confession for him. "He played a sort of fantasy game, saying, 'Suppose
you had met Patricia Curran. Would you have walked her up the drive?' And
he wrote that up as 'He walked her up the drive'. The whole thing was Capstick's
invention. 'Would you stop to give her a kiss?' That went down as 'He stopped
to give Curran a kiss.' "
I start telling Gordon about the time I was accused
of stealing a ruler at work, and before long I believed that I had done.
I stop, feeling an idiot for having compared the two. But Gordon is fascinated.
He says yes, he understands why. "For a while I didn't know whether I'd
killed Patricia Curran or not because of the state of my mind. Gradually
when I came to my senses, in the prison and in the hospital, I realised
I hadn't killed her."
Before the trial, he told his defence that the confession
had been forced, and that he wanted to plead not guilty. The lawyers ignored
him, pleading guilty but insane. He later discovered there had been witnesses
prepared to vouch that on the night of the murder he had been sitting the
exam, but his defence lawyers had never called on them. He says his defence
has a lot to answer for, then gives them the benefit of the doubt - perhaps
the plea was the only way of ensuring that he didn't get the death penalty.
How did he feel when he was sentenced? "I think I was relieved because
those were the days you could have hung."
Gordon did not receive any treatment in the mental
hospital. The doctors knew he wasn't mad. For two years he was locked up
in a closed ward with psychopaths. "They could be very nice to you one
minute then come at you with a chair the next, through no fault of their
own. They were mentally ill. You stand with your back to the wall so you
can see everything coming towards you."
How did he cope? Initially, he says, he didn't. "I
remember it was the Queen's coronation and I was very depressed. Then somebody
gave me a Daily Express to look at, and there was this guy called Norman
Vincent Peale who taught positive thinking, and his book was serialised
in the Express. It turned my life round. He said, 'No matter what your
condition is, you can take control.' When I was in the hospital, just to
keep myself going, I used to say, 'Tomorrow I'll be free.' I kept saying
that for seven and a half years until it became automatic."
His lack of bitterness astonishes me. "What would
be the point? I've seen it happen to people. They end up losing their their
health and destroying themselves as a human being." He says he's not had
a day's bad health in 50 years, and smiles shyly. "A lot of people seem
to have been impressed by the fact that I'm not bitter."
In 1960 he was released from hospital and allowed
to return to his mother in Scotland. But in reality his sentence had barely
begun. Gordon could not get a job because of his history. When Collins,
the publisher, finally gave him one, it was on the condition that he changed
his name to John and never talked about his case.
He says, very calmly, that in the 33 years he worked
there he abided by the rules. Didn't he want to scream? Tell the world
he was Iain, not John, and carrying this dreadful secret? "At first I was
just glad to be given the opportunity to pick up the threads of my life.
But it made relationships difficult. When you wanted to go out with a girl,
you had to decide: will I tell her or won't I? And will she tell her folk,
and her folk might feel you don't need someone with a conviction? I went
with one girl for a while at Collins but it petered out . . ."
One of the terrible ironies of Gordon's case is that
the man who was so terrified of his mother discovering his homosexuality
has always had relationships with women. He once had a "dalliance" with
a young man, just before he was arrested, but has never considered himself
gay. For many years he has "been going with" a woman who now has multiple
sclerosis and lives in a home. Did he ever want to have children? "I don't
think so. I don't know how to put it . . . I think my experience destroyed
my ability to take decisions. I found it very difficult when I came home
to make just simple decisions because in hospital they'd been making decisions
for me."
In 1993 Gordon took redundancy. He'd had enough silence,
enough anonymity. In recent years friends had started to bring radios into
work and had listened to the news together, hearing about all the miscarriages
of justice that were being righted. He couldn't stop thinking about the
case. He tells me about the recurring nightmare. "I was in a kind of box,
a secure environment. Somebody had a list of people who were going to be
released . . . my name was never on it." He is talking in a staccato whisper,
snuffling, breaking down every few words. "I would keep saying, 'When is
my turn?' and somebody would say, 'You're not on this list.' And it was
so real . . . I'd wake up shaking . . . Then in the morning you'd think
about it first thing, and last thing at night."
He changed his name back to Iain, took part in a
documentary about his miscarriage of justice, and told his former colleagues
who he really was. The only thing left to do was appeal against his sentence.
This is when he began to think he was Joseph K trapped in Kafka's Trial.
He was told he couldn't appeal because, technically, "guilty but insane"
was an acquittal. "Some of the Tories said they didn't know what all the
fuss was about because I was walking about a free man . . . It'll be in
Hansard . . . I might have been walking about a free man but I'd not cleared
myself so I wasn't really free."
Which meant another fight. Gordon asks if he can
say a few thank-yous to all the people who have helped him. There is the
journalist John Linklater, who gave up his job to mastermind Gordon's campaign;
his lawyer Margot [Harvey], and Louis Blom-Cooper QC who have worked for
nothing . . . The list is long. He apologises and says he knows he can't
tell me what to write, and pleads a mention for Maria Fyfe, his constituency
MP, who succeeded in changing the law so he could appeal.
It is now two years since Gordon formally began the
process of clearing his name. Two weeks ago, the appeal court in Belfast
agreed that the evidence was "unreliable", but even now the authorities
are making things as difficult as possible for him. It was left for his
legal team to tell him that he was to have his conviction overturned. Yet
officially, judgment has been reserved for a few weeks. "I understand it's
normal procedure to give an interim decision and then confirm it in writing.
Well, they didn't give me anything. Margot, my lawyer, was fizzing, really
angry. Even now it would be nice if they'd gone one step further and said
I was innocent."
There is little likelihood of the real killer of
Patricia Curran ever being named, though it has been suggested that Patricia
had argued with her mother shortly before her death and that there was
a cover-up.
We're walking down the street. It's pouring down,
a truly horrible day, and Gordon has a big, happy smile on his face. He
says he hasn't got a clue what he will do now, but despite his quibbles
he's relishing the moment. Hopefully, there will be enough compensation
to make the rest of his life comfortable. Gordon says it has never been
a priority, but yes, compensation is important "because then Margot will
get some money for the work she's done". Those hollowed eyes devour the
Glasgow in front of him. "Walking along the street in the last week there
must have been half a dozen people who have come up to shake my hand. Strangers.
The support I've got from people has been phenomenal. It makes me feel
so humble." |