12 May 1999
Strange taste of freedom
A man is locked up for a quarter of a century for
a murder he didn't commit. When he comes out he doesn't know his cheesecake
from his ciabatta, and his greatest joy is a flush toilet. Andrew Evans
talks to Chris Arnot about the ways in which he is trying to come to terms
with all he has lost
Andrew Evans scans the menu with a furrowed brow
and asks: "What's cheesecake?" On being told that it's a pudding, he goes
back to perusing the options and asks for "something simple, like a bacon
sandwich". Easier said than done. He could have strips of grilled chicken
or steak on ciabatta bread, or smoked salmon and scrambled egg in a bagel.
But bacon sandwiches are not on the menu, so staff are unable to access
a price through a till strictly controlled by a computer ordering system.
Eventually, Evans settles for an "all-day breakfast", although it's three
in the afternoon in a Nottingham cafe-bar.
Such places were unheard of in provincial England
in 1972 when he was sent to prison for life for a crime he didn't commit.
His was the longest miscarriage of justice in British legal history. He
was 17 when he walked into a police station in Staffordshire and confessed
to the murder of a 14-year-old girl in Tamworth. At the time, he had just
been discharged from the army because of his asthma and was taking Valium
for depression. Images of the girl's face came to him in a nightmare and,
in a muddled state, he assumed that he had been responsible.
There were key aspects of his story which didn't
tie in with the facts and he would later retract his statement and plead
not guilty. Too late. By the time he emerged from the Court of Appeal a
free man in December 1997, a quarter of a century had elapsed. The callow
youth was now a man of 42 with grey hair and the beginnings of a middle-aged
spread. He had gone in confused, depressed and barely literate. He emerged
a prolific reader, a keen listener to Radios 4 and 3, able to write music
and confident enough in his abilities at maths and English to teach fellow
prisoners.
This transformation was largely due to his innate
intelligence and resilience. Benign influences within 12 of Her Majesty's
Prisons are far outweighed in his memories by the constant threat of violence
from inmates and the terror of lying awake listening to night-time screams.
As he sits waiting for his late breakfast, his eyes
are constantly darting from side to side as though expecting attack from
behind.
"I must be getting better," he says, ruefully, "because
at one time I'd have had to sit where you are with a wall behind me."
He had no illusions that life on the outside would
be easy, but he remains staggered by the lack of preparation he received.
"If I'd been a murderer," he says, "I'd have had professionals on my case
24 hours a day. But because I didn't do it, they didn't want to know."
He had to wait for his first £100,000 compensation
from the Home Office, and legal representations are continuing for a proper
settlement. So friends raised the £2,000 necessary to book him in
immediately for 10 days at Ticehurst hospital in Kent, where Terry Waite
had gone for counselling following his release in 1991 after almost five
years as a hostage in Beirut.
It was at Ticehurst that Andrew met Sheila, a psychiatric
unit administrator. She went out of her way to help him overcome what might
seem simple problems, such as opening a bank account when he had no identification.
"She was there for me," he says, "and I rushed into a relationship." Understandably,
perhaps. He had little experience of women before he was locked away and
his youth was stolen away from him. "With Sheila, I was trying to do everything
and ended up with nothing," he admits. The relationship ended after a holiday
together in Goa.
Back in England, he struggled to come to terms with
what had changed in 25 years. Buses had become one-man operated, requiring
the correct change and causing him to curse the inventor of the "ridiculously
small" 5p piece. Supermarket shelves groaned with the sort of choices that
didn't exist in 1972. "It freaked me out," he says.
"I kept expecting somebody to tap me on the shoulder
and say, ‘Oi, put that back.'" And the money? "Well, I'd expected prices
to go up, of course, like the cost of coffee in prison canteens. But it
still comes as a shock to pay £100 for a week's groceries." He is,
though, enjoying cooking and eating good food. For 20 of his 25 years inside,
he was a vegetarian - partly for moral reasons and partly to avoid gristly
meat and what he calls "cockroach-enriched cabbage".
Out on the streets, he noticed another change. "There's
no eye contact any more," he says, "as though people are anticipating aggression.
I was walking through the middle of Nottingham one night when I saw this
bloke attacking a woman. Everybody around was moving away. When I went
back to help, he'd cleared off and the girl was in tears. I gave her £20
to get a taxi - at that time I was spending money like water - but the
woman I was with told me I shouldn't get involved. People keep themselves
to themselves much more than they did."
Evans lives alone in a rented bungalow in a pleasant
part of Nottingham. "I couldn't hold down a job at the moment because I
keep having these fits when I just curl up in a ball and sob," he says.
At other times he can enjoy simple pleasures, like watching the history
channel on cable television, going for country rides on his motor scooter
and revelling in the view from his bedroom window - a gravel drive, trees
and distant fields. "No barbed wire, searchlights and locked gates."
What he calls his "piece de resistance" is his flush
toilet. "You never forget the smell from a plastic bucket in the corner
of your cell in summer, " he says, "or the stench of 100 prisoners emptying
their piss-pots." At least hygiene standards improved during his time inside.
"At the Verne [in Dorset] there were three toilets between 20 on a landing.
That's not too bad."
He would still be there now were it not for a chance
meeting with Steve Elsworth, of Greenpeace, who had gone to the Verne prison
to give a talk. He returned one visiting time and took detailed notes while
Evans poured out his story. Elsworth passed on the details to two Midlands-based
Carlton Television producers, John McLeod and Allister Craddock.
They featured his story, first in 1994 on Crime Stalker
- fronted by John Stalker, the former assistant chief constable of Greater
Manchester - and again in 1997 on a documentary called, appropriately enough,
The Nightmare. Throughout, they worked closely with the human rights organisation,
JUSTICE, whose lawyers would eventually secure Evans's release.
"I owe them all a great deal," he says. "I'm now
becoming more comfortable with other people. But I've also become more
and more aware of what they've known and what I've known over the past
25 years. It's only over the last few weeks or so that it's begun to dawn
on me what I've lost." |